16.5.07

i am so bloody tired!! its a sudden compromise of energy from everywhere, the body and the soul. to me, alot have happened today and im glad i just used the energy i have left to settle some issues.
when i waiting for my takeaways and feeling so tired i dont feel impatient, i thought about everything that happened, actions events feelings processes outcomes ifs and but thens. then when i felt like my tears were gonna start flowing, i was reminded that my mum hates me crying especially in the public. im very confused actually. some ppl ask me to just cry when i want to, but my mum HATES that about me. im a crybaby, most unfortunately for her.
i immediately asked myself to focus. its focus that makes me less messed up. so now at least i know where to store my probs and assignments and what to deal with them when.
im also starting to get into the 'do things my own way' attitude me. i need to set whatever emotions in me free.
i also thought about how ppl percieve the statement 'im very tired'. i got an unexpected reply today. maybe cause im too used to complaining to a specific someone who knows im complaining and thus will say 'how come?' as a cue for me to continue my complain. this made me cherish even more.and when i tell my mum 'imvery tired', she percieved it as a refusal to do a task she mentioned. then when i tell my best friend 'im very tired', she is only too eager to give suggestions. lolx.
most of the time, i just need you to listen. dont judge, dont assume, dont infer, dont suggest. cue and listen and understand. after i vent, i'll appreciate you more than if you had tried any of the dont's.
so yes, i AM tired.

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me

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new back-to-school bag
get a haircut
clean room
hang up puzzle
clothes!
completing the modules quite well
find a dance partner/ new cca
practise on the piano
lose weight
find an interest in music or dance